Helios

Helios

Bright visage
Wreathed in golds and limes
Fall of hair's coppery tumble
Shadowy trails honeysuckle memories
Haunting rider
Rising on horizons of blighted love.

Fallen to the floor
Ever supplicant
Raised eyes an abject plea
Worshipping sungazer
His erstwhile prey...
The original sin
Not her abandonment
Of young blameless prince...

But his oblivion to her days
Please not Sol to
Smile such scorn
Mighty radiator Supreme Helios
In thy magnanimity all life release

The committed act a sin...
Yet a glorious one...
An unforgettable gift.

Yet the one whose chamber window invaded
Forcefully her hospitality commanded
While her father's guest...
Virgin princess
By you deflowered desolate
Holding up her sunflower face
For your eternal warmth

Ever shirking from her formal bequeathal
Forever pallid wife of Pandu..

Kunti fair princess of halycon days
Now regal matriarch
Widowed queen

Karna her first born
Valiant, Wily...abandoned son.
Waiting in passive rage
An ear to the ground
For a Mother's blessings
Thirstiest
Is the unacknowledged one...

Sun God do thee
Abdicate from thy high throne
Once more descend
Floored by the vitality of your
Raging lust
The affection that could not last
Forever spent her days
Are mere shadows.

Brilliance was her soft undoing...
Kunti's sweet madrigals are those
Of love lost in the shimmery sunlight
Irevocable as the deep moment
Of lust fleeting...always
Forevermore in
luminous
Limbo
The one so alive in piteous prayers
Forsaken...

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Invisible

I wrote this for a 15 minute writing prompt in another group...
Imagine an hour ago in real time...where you were... What you were doing...at that precise moment you turned invisible. Describe what you were doing and the reactions of others during the time you were invisible.

Office lunch break.Eating alone at my desk.
Everyone else goes out except this harassed new intern with a workload beyond endurance.
At precisely 1 52 pm...I found I couldn't see my fingers holding a forkful of pasta....
Looking down I see my green leather seat.....but not my body slouched on it.resting on the floor are my suede black sandals peppered with glitters. Empty.
But of course! In a slow insane manner I clamber off my chair....I see my suede sandals in motion...
Where's my body? Its right here I can feel myself I can pinch myself. But I cannot see me. I'm invisible.
The boss and the other beautiful new intern come back. And finding an empty office they start kissing. Panicking I hide behind a pillar. Or rather I hide my lacy wisp of a white blouse my slate black skirt my gold locket and chain my wristwatch and shoes...
My fingers brush the start button of a printer accidentally...
And it starts rolling out streams of print outs...
My boss swearing leaves his little inamorata and approaches me and screaming in unison....our hollow terror makes hideous music....
I flee from the room down the service stairs panting in fright...
Looking into the hall way mirror I am mesmerized... I'm slowly ever so slowly morphing...getting back my fleshly form...
Like pieces of a missing jigsaw puzzle I fill out in all directions. Arms legs neck and startled haunted face.
Behind me.... A horrific gasp.
The janitor has fainted.

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Walk Away

Walk Away...

Then I
With my flawless arms upheld
Gather the tempestuous thoughts
hurtling them
In disdain..

Never look back upon discarded pain.

Each crystalline strand trembled and cringed
But locked up its tale
And in voluminous outpour 'twas shed

Over green dales hiding craven ridges
Of  broken hearts
Rocky stony abstinence sustaining fortitude
Over every obstinate lumpen sum of doubts
As bridges embracing austere obstacles
These liquid lustrous locks
In soft and yielding fluidity
nature's force fields
Vehemently released.

Devoid of lava
No longer wishful
In abandonment's generosity...
Gathered pool of happy tears
A placid place
Where sorrows were unknown
And crash of completion
Exalted exhausted surrender.

In sweet compliance
Absolution
In relentless fall
An absolute unflinching
Veracity.

She never looked back again.
Arms akimbo...
She gathered stray locks
Some tales were worth
Retaining
Talismans
Making this
Walk of life
A legend,..

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The Rebel

Nilabh Kumar my grateful acknowledgement for the inspiration your poem afforded....your lines ...I'm a prisoner of my body....I'm a prisoner of my time...started off this poem.

The Rebel.

Nothing new under the sun
As the stars align one by one
What was before
Again must be
What comes ahead
The past has seen

Disjunction...
Mismatch
The rebel is anachronistic
Nothing comes up to scratch
For him...

To be
Shackled by his senses
Imprisoned by the  body
Anchored to a past
Chained to a present

The first clue...is the entrapment
The hard limits of concealment
He looks for the question
Locked in 

Distorted pseudo reality
Refrained from recognition
True cyclical nature
In linear progression
The ebb the flow the ascension
The serpentine belt
Writhing...
Accross our skies.
The end  never beginning...

Nothing dies.
Morning moans and groans into
Evening...
staggers through to night
Restages a grand delicious dilemma
Avid circles of life.

Here and there
Few and far between
True seers visionaries
Pierce the veil of elements
The grand deception teleological
Advanced beyond mere pretensions
Cerebral celestial
Bacchanalian Universities...

Nothing new ever under the sun
The stars do align one upon one
What was before
Again must be
And what comes ahead
The past has seen....

And
In Every age
The restless rebel without apparent cause
is reborn for vacancy to use...
In his eyes the bravery of a scathing pain
That seeks understanding solace in vain,
Yet Deep beyond his sirocco orbs do look
Lights of every hue unimaginable
In clustered nooks
The veracities of all holy books
In them
He guards discriminates disseminates
With care wary
Weary to his core
Mark him out
For He is
The One

He is the key 
To the door.

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Sylvan Symphony

These are days of music
My heart in sylvan symphony
Chansons awash in the soigné blue
Flooding the hemisphere with harmony.

The coerced crevices where my brain cowered
Cornered convinced
It was a prisoner
Trapped stopped tormented
Living with cotton plugs in the ear
Cold frigid drowned out buzz
Lost the soul music
And body's dance...
Suddenly with a shrug
The mottled snakeskin sneering rug
Just slipped off....repugnance rejected.
Wonder...
Erupted.

The little ones agape in wonder
As I played something busily
Bustling bubbling into humming tune
From Before Christ I swear it seems
So long...
Then I played it endlessly and again.

Gathered up a tiny human being...
Into my embrace
Dancing and singing
While the other hopped and hoped
To be my partner!

I forget the sleazy games....easy mind games
Feeding the psyche
Tears satiating hunger
Thirst killed choked
with chunky chocolate
Bitter cold sweet dreams.
So pungent!

The heaven of
Perfect freedom in being
It is in these days
That suddenly a
Door has opened.

And  silhouetting
A lazy mottled beam
Of dust speckled
Cinematic sunlight

My love stands with
langourous smile
A cozy relaxation in
tenacious pursuit
A medium of soft exchange
A foil precious of rarest mettle
Charcoal black premonitions
In the dim hallway.

Are these days or
Dreams divinations visitations?
Or simply magic
Because it was
So much needed...

An
Abra ca Dabra
Inevitability
An
Inner self...

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Be My Everything

Be My Everything

Cover me
Love ...
Truth or dare
Just like that.
No lies ever.

I only want you.
Show you care
There's a wrecking ball of a
world out there
my love
Rolling out to flatten us
I won't share you
I shed my fear of
Battling the doubts.

You're not real
If you think
My seriousness
Is just pretence

And I'm
Yours,
Head over heels
Yours,
Mousy Cinderella in patched up pumpkin coach
yours,
Sleeping beauty awakened from a thousand years
Of drowsy deathlessness
By your kiss...

I am yours and all this
Snow White I'm not but
I'm yours.

Beautiful holy man I'm your
Darkest ivory damsel
In distress
And you have removed
The poisoned apple
Lodged in my
hesitant throat.

I cannot hate
Myself
When you love me
Like this...
Your baby girl
Eternal...
Your lover,
Your maid...
I am so blessed
To be
Anklet on
Graceful feet of lovely
Aphrodite
Twinkling my timid soul song
And tinkling gently
In the glowworm breeze.

Cover me
With your warm regards
Love and lust be our
Holy mass
And communion.

Our swirling mist
Of repentant past
A tender fast cast in
Chalice of purest
Penance.

Truth and dare
Everlasting
No lies...glinting
No weak chinks
No betrayal in the golden links
Eyes shut ecstatic
Day dreaming.

Cover me
love
With your angel wings...
Be my everything.

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Radha

Radha

Lord of bleak blue nights
When silence hisses ferociously
Kissing each demented harsh diamondback
Memory
Rattlesnakes coiled inside wound tight
Oversights of oblivion
The act
Of unsheathing the venomous serpent
Releases ruler of Adishesha
I meet with you
I melt away
On the barge  Anantashesha...
That which remains
When dreams
End.

Ananta shesha.
The endless remainder
Reception
Of your tender grace.

I have come hard crying
Crazy beautiful grace
Feminine fate...

You have taken me on
Eyes closed to my plight
Knowing simply
The weight of my
Existence.
Allowing that
Which remains.

In my mind
Your sacred hour has come
Deliverance beyond
Human redemption
Sweet patient love eternal
Tolerating accepting
Allowing
This flawed
Human being.

Neither go nor stay
Lord
In my life.
Be the moving fulcrum
Of this wicked heavy world
A thousand jewels
Shine thy many hoods...

If I still love
Its because
You're watching the distance
Looking out for me
Smiling assurance.

The last exhausted crawling lap
Ends in fervent surrender
All arrogance extinguished
United mercy
On divinity's lap.

And blue soul nights so soft so bleak
And  black....
Stars withheld like minor angels
Moon grinning malovolence
At my tearful face...

For a filthy second
Eternity creeps ahead of itself
fulfill the betrothal
Of grief to insanity

And then I see you
Krishna flaunting fragile peacock feather
Dark lord of doe eyed mercy
Lover and king
Of soft sweet
Desolation...
The king
Of rejected hearts.....claimant
Of  the misunderstood and damned...
What a graceful
Face.
Radha would wait endless cycles
Of the cosmic flower's folding unfolding
For a drop of divine dew
In her tears
His world reflects.

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Of Cats n Stars n Dis n Dat

Of Cats and Stars and Dis n Dat

You know I can't get it right
When I'm serious I'm a clown
And when I'm happy
I make you frown
And I'm going down
In my dressing gown to feed
Jenny
Spot of milk
And biscuits
And I will go up shortly
Take the laundry off the terrace
At sunset tiny twinkling stars
Start to appear
Quite a party they're having
Smile and beguile
For a while
Fade away into the night
Leave no traces
When day is bright
On my stoop
Jenny howls
He is a dog not
A cat
Did you think he was my tabby
Perhaps I mislead you?
This is not a poem at all
Writing clearly I'd say
Is not my call.
Stars cats dis and dat
A laundry list
Of tits for tats
And childish spite
And lusty fights
Sublimation in
Surreal writes.

I have put on my murky dressing gown...
With slimy greens and blues and browns
Like a frog princess
I stick in the mud...
Those who kiss me such stallion studs
Only a simple man can turn
This ugly green amphibian ambivalence
Into a ready to dance
Live hopping princess.

Now let milk and biscuits and eager animals
Stars and sparkling comet trails
Leave her reverent.

Brown

Brown

The dark fizz bottled up so long
Jerked tossed and turned around
Exploded on opening....
Drama everywhere...
In bubbly brown gazillions...
My dismayed face on pouring.

Red faced with guilt and discomposed
I served a silent glass.

Trails of cold snaking and beading my face.
Spotlights of gold tingling...

Disruption... Your legs carefully tucked in...
My cursory mopping up of the floor
Greedy for seduction.

Your eyes bent on mine burning twin golden holes
Right into my soul...
My chest hurts...the light didn't penetrate through
And leave me emptied and light.

Instead inside gathers a pool
of venomous momentum
Coiling, climbing, uncoiling, unsheathing
The darkness inside
A nakedness...

The scales of inhibition...were safety.

You drained your glass empty.
Mine unpoured.
I drank in a daze of intoxication from fallen eyes.

And the tiles underneath shaking falling...
So far away, unhinging my brick bound reality
Pulling out and away, the floors underneath...
Vast emptiness
Leaving my back
Uncovered.

No turning to take even a peek...
Anchored to your stormy eyes I fall
As yours glint wickedly
And take me in a leap...

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Duet

Soft, crisp, light, deep, in and out
Ravenous fingering lips
Lingering touch uneasy blissful
My tortured passionate pouts
Shivers of suppressed wants
waiting writhing ecstasy
Sombre Fragile doubts...
You so hold me that
There's no way out.

Do caress and thrill
With your piano fingered mouth
I am waiting to be your
greatest symphony
Your Best duet so
Play me out

My eyes are thoughts
Slit into sleek
Avocados moist
Half turned tilted around
Wary slightly shuttered
Watching your perfect  game
I am your frozen playground
Eternally poised.

My skin wears out
Wears my heart softly splayed
Your gentle brush strokes alms
For which I prayed
you and me
Sweet harmony
My love
My soul
My self
And this bodily
Instrument
Attunes
And pleads
Yes my darling yes
Please do,
Do
Play on me.

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Break Away

Break Away

Break away from the pain
Of what wasn't meant to be
Break into the waves of
Free foaming sea.

I do.
I swim I swear I do survive
But so do you ...as the love
Of my life.
So do you love
In my lonely life.

I break away from moodiness
I break into the falling sea of grace
At midnight your memories
Rise
A star
A solitaire...pouring
Diamonds in my eyes.

Life resumes. Such love presumes
That creep in unaware walls of doom.

I break away in fanatic motion.
Dance is tortuous frenzy of emotion.
I break away to such crumbled bits
If you add them up
You won't get
The sum of me.

Lost in the whole
And the whole was lost
Each bit survives
To pay the cost.

When love is lost
Oh.....
When your love is lost.

Let me break no more
To break away...
Let me keep my loss
It locks my love.
And keeps you at bay.

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And What Does it All Mean?

And What Does It All Mean?

And what does it mean this emptiness?
Paralyzing sea of loneliness
Eyes of ceilings ears of clock
This forever waiting beating
Heart of staccato rock.

And what do you mean
Your words to me
Heart of loneliness
Lying in tongues to please.

Eyes of glass and deaf ears alas
Thin empty space
Swirling bloody rush,
Soft heartbeat race

And what does it all mean to me
Meaningless empty trashy sea
The rising waves that crash and fall
Obedient blink of eyes plastic ears
A blank servant doll.

This rush of fear
This scary air
The breath that hurts the chest
To bear.

This ticking along sticking
With wayward ticking clock
This seeing beyond my
Stark empty docks.

The lonely sea
It paints for me
A fairyland of faith
Where words work in charming ease.

They never tempt and staunchly
Refuse to tease.

And what did it all mean to you
Is the answer
That kills my question too.

But it did not kill
It could not
My love for you.

And love is not a word anymore.
It is but a handle without a door.

You turn it your way.
And I turn it mine.

And the clock chimes.
And nothing really rhymes.

And writing wishes won't release
Wondering on what could be
Must never cease.

May you hope on poets word
Words that plunge and pierce
Like crystal swords
Each word a beacon
For eyes that see.
Mine are blinded
By loving dreams.

If this sight is
Vision.
It cannot be.

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Before Sunset

My sincere thanks to Stephen Dick for borrowing the word Holymost from his unique poetic style and the imagery of human flesh roasting as in a bar b q.

Before Sunset

When you...became a shadow
Elongated on my porch then trailed
off the garden path
My mouth opened sipping
In disaster.

Then you strode away
And my soul on stirrups reined my body
Into active anomalous angles.

Soon you were like dust in the wind
a speck on my heart's horizon.
My lips sucked in some lost
Essence of despair.

I blew you my pent up kiss then.
Iips pouted lewd lascivious
And straddled the horizon.
Oblivious my brazen silhouette
Willed you to turn back
Willed your return before
Departure was complete.

Holymost vesper vows my laced up
Bosom prayers in motion
Rising falling breathing you back
Into my magic circle.
Come my love
Before sun sets.

I want you to see me thus
Hips thrust upon the anvil
smouldering gashed lines longing
Clinging ravishing your male vision
Morphed to gaze of
gluttony.

My
Arms akimbo
Tousling my hair
Skin flows in honeyed silk
Motion
Between my hills
And scooped out valleys.

Laced up blistering lust
Uplifted
Reaching out to your damning
Departure.
Sanity lounging in succubus salons
Of silent cravings.

My flesh a soft tender roast rare
in the sun of your fading.

Vast horizons ...
Simmer like mirages
Sahara of thirst dipping
Dimming and dipping.

My belly dances in pelvic gullies
Of creamy lustre
Hollowing out hidden valleys
of far too valiant and violent restraint
My muslin skirts in sweet humility
fall into abject surrender...

I'm swimming across a crying ocean
Calling your name.
Come Angel of destinations
Destroy your outward journey.

Before sunsets
Come hither
Take me.

Fervent lace ties and twin cities
Like vespers succulent
Beckoning.

Come Ruler
Into your willing
Kingdom
Return to your realm
Establish
your ruthless rule
Stringently
unto me.

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Bewitched

Bewitched

Waiting in the dark
Command like hiss
Smouldering soul
Such salacious bliss.

I kiss I turn pirouette but fall
Received at your feet
Brutal without breath
Out of all wit.

The wine of your romance
Heady hedonistic rush
Amorous duel
Your sword tip
piercingly thrusts
My soul soft crushed.

Erect stance like serpent
Of knowledge tells all.
My heart pricked petals
Fearfully stalls.

Rosy blush
Thorn of your love
Spreading me out
Receptively lush.

My hesitant constraints
Your avaricious gain
I'm lustrous lit up
A genie's lamp
Limpid and lambent
Shining pleasure from pain.

My moves supervised
My hands and feet tied
My face on your knees
My eyes on the floor
Unable to see.

Your arousal my triumph
My victorious turf
You cannot do without me.
Your eyes
Unable to see...

Soft strokes sweet beloved
Master yourself
Then be my master
Immortalize our tale.

We are only human
Neither knight Templar
Nor witch
Yet I'm all the magic
That you could ever reach.

My will bent on thy wand...
My sweet cauldron of fire...
The charm of my spell
Makes denial the liar...

I bid thee farewell
As you bade me by thy will...
You shall remember me
Salem's shadows every night
Will be bewitched bonfire
The frozen fiend fire
pyre
Of my sizzling memories.

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Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis

I will love you again and again
Time alone will tell
Where love may dwell
In every life
Passion's swell
Will reveal your face
Lightning embrace
Searing pain
Joy
Of recognition.

I'm on a bridge and there's no
Turning back
Nothing to return for
I set it aflame
To cross the seas of doubt
For the dubious honor
Setting foot
On the stagnant shores
Of self sufficient life...
Drowning a whimpering soul
That cries for
Partnership.

What joy it was
Watching the watery floor
Aflame with fire
Of our ignited passion
Sorrow that doused
Regrets...

May my footsteps
Carry me far
Over hills and vales of
This strange despair
A new sun
A new journeying
To life
And life
will bring love
To my doorstep.

Heal love
I heal myself....
With soothing comforting writes...
The pen wringes pain
From porous heart.

In soul translations
Lie
Metamorphosis.

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Dream Dancer

Dream Dancer.

Dream dancer dream on
The steps are new
Suede shoes slip on
Black and white Italian hue
Calibrated carrera Marble
Chess board of fated meeting
I am in your arms
Dizzy amorous
Faintly dipping,
slipping.

You whirl and bow
Forget frenzy of my ardour
Neglect to catch my fall
As the next dance partner
Slips a delicate palm
And sweeps you off
Into primaeval Eden anew
Each time before
The ethical fall
Unto vistas of brilliant hue.

I stay on sorrows suspension
Stranded on the floor
The moment reels, walls walk away,
Ceiling whirls...
The tiles gleam sad tears
Of strategic resistance
Decried...
This torture needless
But my love
All strategy is heedless
When one partners
Her dream in the
Dance of love.

My Italian marble floors
Are show stoppers killing motion.

Your gaze travels much further
Than my blurred vision
And my cold hard reality
Flash freezes sweet emotion.

I cannot sink in shame
For the ground floor of sophisticated artifice
Won't allow entry.
Admission denied
The dance floor emptied.
Jubiliant dancers flock out
And sleep my waiver
Comes tumbling in...
Tonight at least.

Tomorrow's ballroom
Presents the
Dream dancer in
Brand new façades
Same old heartaches.

Stilettos of passion
Sharpening to rigorous ardour
stab soft hearted wishfulness
As you and I
Waltz wading through patterns of
Pain.

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For Gabi Gabriella

For Gabi Gabriella

I hope you like it. I can hardly do justice to such a picture.

Woman of God.
Still waters, pristine
A gondola in bronze dark
Waters of Venice
Sunset on eternity.

Her skin maps utopias of
Flawless purity
Her hair is delicious embellishment
wet slicked back alloys on
Piled wings of gold.

Her pose a tranquil goddess
Lips parted in mock submission
Frozen art calm tempestuous
A tremulous hint of
Derision
Suppressed pants
A half smile of evasion.

Fear naught.
Fear nothing.
But fear for lies inside
Your depth of devotion
If she raised downcast eyes
To expose stellar orbs
behind cavorting lashes
Your world would end
As worship
At her feet.

And thus
She sheds soft honeyed amber gaze
Strict Inviolable mercy
Earthbound
From fearless beacons of
Emerald violet.

Sweet citadel
Of peace
Passionately protected.

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Amrita

Amrita

As you requested I write about me Rina :)

Part by part this tale enacts
Good times and what sorrow retracts
Born amidst such loving hearts
I was beloved baby girl
Even before memory's start.

Eve of  dawn upon this earth
A white owl's descent upon corniced windowsill
My mother still tells this midnight tale
I guess at birth mother and babe
Bewitched.

And two years a few months of heaven
Rolled by, then chariots of fire in divine ire
Caged my mom in lieu of life
Father spent the year nursing his beautiful wife.

I remember waving to each passing plane
Mom and dad will I see you again?
And playing with my cousins dolls
Cross my heart love blessed us all.

She returned a moon faced Madonna
Puffed up plump, with drugs to keep her alive
Though my mother still my hard working daddy lost
The inspiring wife she was

Brilliant student of linguistics, poetess who aspired
Learnt Russian with ease
A brave indomitable spirit
Without the spinal cord
Of strong memories.

Pride ? What is it?
Being a lady? I learnt a la mode...as I please.
Good taste...a matter of quaint genetics.
But my Daddy's braveheart will beat in me.

Tactless I sail my unwary boat
Barging into more powerful monstrous steamers
Time your patience...
My tale won't take too long
I lift my anchor and sail rudderless
The empty winds blow sweet sunset
The vale descends to evening's scented
Shadows
I see above my lonely difficult star
Brightening my sweet unearthliness

I never belonged, stranger to all ownerships.
It is much too late and so, I smile at unease
I'll see you again my
Snow white owl of fate
Wings agleam swooping scoops
Of moon
I will ride the night with you against the final paen
Come see me soon.

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Syncopated

Just you just me
Our syncopated world
Bathed in secrecy...

In my heart
Where you still live
Mute and resolute
Deaf to my almost uttered plea
Perceptions astute.

The silence is gruesome
The beat thumps relentless
I want to outrun the racing hands
Jumpstart time's arrowhead.

The clock has stopped caring
An empty insipid dial
Time stamped on my heart
With the long hand of
Destruction.

Seconds check me out
Like a tart dressed on display
I mourn the loss
Count your loose change of words
Yesterday's
Meagre recompense.

Unbearable is too long a word
Unbreakable too
Just you just me
Walled in desire
Despair's deep indigo blues.

When it's all over
And the words just won't come
Healer pen withdrawn
Ink well frozen
Paper crackling blank faced
End of our sum.

I used to cry from loneliness
I used to cry from grief
I used to cry from memories
Losing only to relive.

Now I won't cry.
Keep thinking why
I refuse to learn
That my keep
must be earned.

My dear friend my
Feet found an anklet
It was of fine gold
Protective circlet
True fashioned old.

What songs to be sung
To the dance and be damned
Music berates in
Fit Starts onstage
The slots of Jove's juke box
Sputters  outrage.

And just you and I
True to the creed
Trust in a stranger is
Too much like greed.

Syncopated beat
Arrhythmic meet
Come uppance too cold
With no one to come back to
With no one
To grow gracefully old.

Press me against the cold tiles
Of your indigo walls
Reserved for brutality
Our most blunt expression
Move me over
Cover up need's urgency
In love's overalls.

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Charlatan

Two days haven't written a line yet
That made any sense to me.
I am writing rants on social media
Picking quibbles with strangers
on patents and Generic medicines
GMOs and bees.

Two poems I wept out of my soul
But they made no sense at all
I am wild inside with ecru grief
My story must be told.

My love is like palest yellow sun
soft and steady at dawn.
My life is white dwarved
Burnt out of existence
Your super nova shout of passion
Now exhausted extinction.
My template is tolerance
Idiosyncratic ratiocination.

I went out with the girls
The restaurant seemed all out of joint...
The end of the universe
Seemed more on point.

Sitting on a fence a bewitched lass
A bean town babe so lame
Cursing solitary inside the frame
Of filthy Facebook fame.

The innards of the mind
Are ugly
The duckling cannot accept
The swan she wants to turn into
Is an albino mistake.

The wind sucks my loneliness
Fashions it into recycled breath for me.
Soft and soggy
The roof is drowned.
The basement, it rises, see!

From dead underground
From hellish scabby wounds
And if you ever understood
This mind's merry go round
You would be frightened
To be me.

A love turns to lie
A courtship turns to alms
Sweet romance forever becomes
Pity applied as balm.

This is a charlatan poem
shortchange for verse.
The stunning betrayal of a
Conspiring
Concupiscent universe.

To Lena

Lena Muneca Rina Nicole

To Lena
Inspired by David Allen.
My dear Lena. I haven't any er...romantic interest in you. But like Helen's face launched a 1000 ships yours just spontaneously inspired this poem. And Rina though you deserve a lovely poem to yourself you're in this one as well.

And Gabi Gabriella Your truly artistic picture might ignite another poetic piece....

Senorita Lena Muneca
Winsome amicable
Bella Amiga
I am not a friend nor an admirer
Just another whimsical woman
Just someone who likes your poem
Paired perfection
With your pretty face...

Sunlit honey golden tawny
Face of an angel alluring
Innocent and free
You remind me of sea gulls swooping
On sandy beaches
With sweet wet tresses
An ardent Aphrodite arisen from waves
Watched over by amorous lover.

You remind me of hope optimism
Goodness charisma.
Sister hearts...Rina and you
Radiating kindness
Kindred spirits
Showering your joyful
Buoyancy
Casting out darkness...
Shine always.

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From Here to Eternity Slop Challenge

Weekly Photo Challenge
From Here Till Eternity

The sands of time rush by
Submerged in the whirlpool
Racing waters collide
Sending spools of frenzied sand
to liquid oblivion.

I plant twin fleshy lips
Like rose of unspeakable passion
Upon your mute askance.

Wind water sand bear witness
How I ignite my hell of longing
Then watch this world
A sea haven
Turn campfire of covert tales...

My fire transform thee...
Into holocaust
Of passionate yearnings.
The years dissolve
Evolving to ageless boundaries
We are...
Before.
Now
Ever After.

My love receive this boon
Ubiquity everlasting
This eternal imprint
Our time
Now begins to spread infinity
Unraveling.

This togetherness
A memory for posterity...
Writ on blue skies
Forever the crowning glory
Of cascading tomorrows.

My flesh firm proof
From here to the
trembles of time
When old raddled incorporeality
Beckons...

You will feel the weight of
My love in your arms
Of acquiescence.

I storm in frenzied love
Safe in secure bastions...
Secluded from
Violation of men.

And the sea tremulous roars
Bearing witness for Time
Flinging sand confetti of
Blessings upon our union.

Love is intuitive syntax
language the
universe speaks
Through silent union
Of mind and body...

Whistler wind riff raffish
Ripping the veil off
All hidden mysteries once
Solvent now dissolute
Resolved in the tempest
Of our Love.

Gypsy Caravan

Gypsy on Caravan

Gypsy aboard heart's caravan
Traveling past countless tinsel stars
Dreamily the moon dances
Stealing in silent
Through my solitary
Window bars.

This journey this ride
This stupendous pride
This do it yourself
A loneliness called life.

My heart makes even desert bloom
And crafts sweet shimmering mirage.
To detect its true oasis
needs far more worth and courage.

I'm a fanciful gypsy
A do it alone mystery
A whimsical history
On my caravan of
Love so exotic
Economic in times of need
And other times
far too generous indeed.

Let me peddle my obsolete ware
My emerald stones of jealousy
My ruby red love my enduring diamond solitaire
My cheap trinkets are my semi precious face
And my eyes shed silicates of wet molten glass

The heart I give to you
Refuses to leave me
I can live with it... So
Cleaving close to grief
And true.

It is mine more than another's.
I reclaim it chimera alter ego
...and I'm on my way
With my lightest baggage packed
The heavy burdens as
Excess shed.

My wild moon bound caravan
Will trundle to a stop
Only for strangest sea shells of antiquity
On oceans of lunar tranquility.

I pull my hair out
like a curtain of
Black mourning
To hide the barren moonlight
Until then...

This caravan dark enticing grateful
Pulled by a punch bowl
of streaming lullabyes
To all the sweet goodbyes
I've said
Horses without names...
I set you all free.
Like arrows of fate
From
Orion's easy bow.

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Break Away

Break Away

Break away from the pain
Of what wasn't meant to be
Break into the waves if
Free foaming sea.

I do.
I swim I swear I do survive
But so do you ...as the love
Of my life.
So do you love
In my lonely life.

I break away from moodiness
I break into the falling sea of grace
At midnight your memories
Rise
A star
A solitaire...pouring
Diamonds in my eyes.

Life resumes. Such love presumes
That creep in unaware walls of doom.

I break away in fanatic motion.
Dance is tortuous frenzy of emotion.
I break away to such crumbled bits
If you add them up
You won't get
The sum of me.

Lost in the whole
And the whole was lost
Each bit survives
To pay the cost.

When love is lost
Oh.....
When your love is lost.

Let me break no more
To break away...
Let me keep my loss
It locks my love.
And keeps you at bay.

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Imperfect./ And What Does It All Mean?

And What Does It All Mean?

And what does it mean this emptiness?
Paralyzing sea of loneliness
Eyes of ceilings ears of clock
This forever waiting beating
Heart of staccato rock.

And what do you mean
Your words to me
Heart of loneliness
Lying in tongues to please.

Eyes of glass and deaf ears alas
Thin empty space
Swirling bloody rush,
Soft heartbeat race

And what does it all mean to me
Meaningless empty trashy sea
The rising waves that crash and fall
Obedient blink of eyes plastic ears
A blank servant doll.

This rush of fear
This scary air
The breath that hurts the chest
To bear.

This ticking along sticking
With wayward ticking clock
This seeing beyond my
Stark empty docks.

The lonely sea
It paints for me
A fairyland of faith
Where words work in charming ease.

They never tempt and staunchly
Refuse to tease.

And what did it all mean to you
Is the answer
That kills my question too.

But it did not kill
It could not
My love for you.

And love is not a word anymore.
It is but a handle without a door.

You turn it your way.
And I turn it mine.

And the clock chimes.
And nothing really rhymes.

And writing wishes won't release
Wondering on what could be
Must never cease.

May you hope on poets word
Words that plunge and pierce
Like crystal swords
Each word a beacon
For eyes that see.
Mine are blinded
By loving dreams.

If this sight is
Vision.
It cannot be.

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Capture

Capture...

Why you
And not I?
Where did you fly
Time
Once beheld
forever
Indebted to fate.

The wheels turn return
Churn up memories
Of nectar
Of poison...

The dark blue sea and
My brown arid lands
Of promise.

No lack of lustre
Yet
Luck of my face cast down
mouth pulled down
In dread memories
But

I cannot give up
Give in call back
The you that was
From the space
That Has been.

Is this what memories are?
Chains
Anchoring slave on
Feet of clay...
To pain?

The sinking the soaring
When it ends...
Where do we stand?
Who do we become?

Where do we go
From here?
For the gates of paradise
Would be Hell
Without you
By my side...

The corners of my mouth
pinned down whiplash a
Pale flutter of beautiful butterfly
A canvas etched from  ether
Struggling with life.

I cannot give up
For some day
We may meet
Beyond daylight's lucre
Greetings from the past
Too long awaited.

And I love you.
I love you
With my life.
See how I  am
An artist  captured...
A captive waiting on
Release.

Believe me.
My freedom
For your
Return...
Shackles on my feet.
Your bonded
Slave...
Will you
Come back to me?
And if you return will you
Remember me?

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Midnight

Midnight

When we say
We love each other
Who weighs each word
And who is wildly abandoned?

Bliss encompasses us both
Like fear does
Misgivings haunt
The body's drive
Dream elevation
Taunts us
We levitate in blissful togetherness above
My cloud bed of fear

Entangled in you
Ion by ion
Body and soul
Entwined
Your lustrous cells
Blaze of longing
Sparkling gems
Encrusted in my hair

Ignited charged energized
Melting like hot chocolate
Oozing into wafers
On  hot summer day sultry
ice cream treat decomposed
Drifting on grassy green déclassé
Lying on my back
Blades tormenting

Devour me darling
And make me subsume my
Inhibitions
Consume my last drop of resistance
Till I have melted fear
Into sea of freedom
My sea wave emotions
Seek hot lava cascading
Mount Olympus
Till I'm scorched
And you're bathed
In bliss

Levitate darling
Let me be forever embedded
In the clouds of your casual contact
caresses of carnage
enveloped by you
Brave futile love letter
Glued inside your tacit
Acceptance.

Levitate darling
To such height of
Ecstasy
Let me be your trampoline
Elastic
And resilient
Mute rock bed of passivity
A Negation of
All resistance.

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Scarlet Rose

Scarlet Rose

Frightened puckered up
Malevolent malicious
She was a red rose
A crystalline red rose
Fragile sensuous
volatile voluptuous.

And her bud
Closed tight for a kiss
Refusing to blossom
Refusing to bloom
Refusing to wither and fall
To be tossed out at last
Yesterday's trash.

Rabidly crimson refusal
Destiny's devious tryst
And collecting herself inwards
In most unnatural
Twists.

Red Jezebel chrysalis
Scarlet demi goddess
Pagan oriental opiate
For dulled starving senses
The dogs eat your ochre flesh
Spattered on the street
Ravished by curs
Refusing the ravages
Of time.

She was a red rose.
On her Caliph's
Carpeted cage.
Queen of his frosty
Imperial sultanate.
A guilt rose thorns trimmed
In a vase of sharks
Gilted lounge most languid rust
Of lust and love.

She was
A ruinous red wine
Rose.
A ruby bosomed
Rapunzel of course
Ensconced
In ivory towers
Fringed in by
cut glass crystal
phalanges of fate.

And
Her bleeding wounds
As the sun set
Everyday
Set her aflame.

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