Radha

Radha

Lord of bleak blue nights
When silence hisses ferociously
Kissing each demented harsh diamondback
Memory
Rattlesnakes coiled inside wound tight
Oversights of oblivion
The act
Of unsheathing the venomous serpent
Releases ruler of Adishesha
I meet with you
I melt away
On the barge  Anantashesha...
That which remains
When dreams
End.

Ananta shesha.
The endless remainder
Reception
Of your tender grace.

I have come hard crying
Crazy beautiful grace
Feminine fate...

You have taken me on
Eyes closed to my plight
Knowing simply
The weight of my
Existence.
Allowing that
Which remains.

In my mind
Your sacred hour has come
Deliverance beyond
Human redemption
Sweet patient love eternal
Tolerating accepting
Allowing
This flawed
Human being.

Neither go nor stay
Lord
In my life.
Be the moving fulcrum
Of this wicked heavy world
A thousand jewels
Shine thy many hoods...

If I still love
Its because
You're watching the distance
Looking out for me
Smiling assurance.

The last exhausted crawling lap
Ends in fervent surrender
All arrogance extinguished
United mercy
On divinity's lap.

And blue soul nights so soft so bleak
And  black....
Stars withheld like minor angels
Moon grinning malovolence
At my tearful face...

For a filthy second
Eternity creeps ahead of itself
fulfill the betrothal
Of grief to insanity

And then I see you
Krishna flaunting fragile peacock feather
Dark lord of doe eyed mercy
Lover and king
Of soft sweet
Desolation...
The king
Of rejected hearts.....claimant
Of  the misunderstood and damned...
What a graceful
Face.
Radha would wait endless cycles
Of the cosmic flower's folding unfolding
For a drop of divine dew
In her tears
His world reflects.

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