Welded

You're insubstantial
And I
am welded to you

You are barely there
Eking out a frugal store of life
Out of meagre supplies
And I
Am welded to you.

You're a fragile breath
you are in a state of vacuous lent
denied succor,  vital air
Mother, incognito,
You are hardly there.

You walk in some dizzying faint
your eyes hard bright as chips of ice
Mine own are frightened, penitent
You are aloof twice removed, hesitant

The farthest you go, my Dearest
I weld my heart to you.

My promises unspoken
Unheeded
To be forever
One with you.

Hear my silent cry
bear my broken echoes
universe of fated follies
Twinkling
As they die.

You take away souls
Parsimonious ferryman
Abridged are we
By your ghoulish jetty,
But before your ether bridge
We daring stand
Fast we hold our familiars
On faith ingrained
This love
Won't be vain.

Farewells
We refuse to
Understand.

Welded from dust to flesh
To pheromones
Wedded forever
Betrothed are we
On frenzied fateful dance
Of hypnotic hormones.

Welded by grammatical genes
to articulate blood and bone.

Mother I carry you
On and on
Holy Tabernacle a dreaming Covenant
Never, ever be gone.

You're lost in corridors
Whose corners we yet,
cannot choose to turn,
Tossed in storms
Your frailty betrayed
Forever alone, undone.

And in another city
in my room of resurrected woe
I restore your doom
Rebuilding sorrow

On and on Mother
The chain unbreakable
Ductile and Malleable
Thin beaten sheets
Of beautiful pain
Golden luminous dreadful strain,
Hideously strung out
to net an entire universe
Voided
In Loss...

Not the only begotten
Son of God
We all bear
the beatific cross.
The epicentre of loss
that holds full measures
Of erstwhile gain.

She taught me
His immense pain
to lament
She now herself walks
Agonized avenues of
Gethsemane.

Indestructibly I
Shall share your pain,
Forever I
am welded to you.

 
(c) Amrita Valan 2016