Maddeningly...

She troops
She lopes
She stoops
She turns the corner.

And stops
Still as a panther
On leaf dappled branch
Sunlight glints
Through blue ventricles
What a sapphire studded
Hunch.

Aeolus calling
Shallow air breathing soul
Inhale deeply
Exhale steeply
Answer
If only you're whole

I can hear you laughing
The call of the wind
Carries my name
I can hear you stifling
All my claims
To feel this pain
In this soft sweet perfumed breeze
Hidden secret memories
Launch with ease
Seeking shelter
Wanton wanderings
Rental tease
Oh your copious call
This fool will please.

I can hear you laughing
You Mad God of men

I think my absolution
Upon the lips of fame

Can you please
Perhaps let me know
If my call was heard
Was it absurd enough
To bear fecund fruit?

The balmy salve
The calm repose
Of her Feline form
Crackles electric upon
The blue boughs of
Sparkling morn.

She will not wait
The answer
Eludes her.

This catwalk,
This hunger,
delusional, depraved,
In Sinuous motions
Tortuous notions,
Strangling hope
Taut agony gropes
For frailest footing.

Slender Mahogany
Golden ebony
Dancing in the breeze
Of tomorrow.

(c) Amrita Valan 2017

Victor

Slender golden
Vicarious victor
In man's image
God shines
Bizzare upon heathen
And believer alike.

Brow beaten
Ugly wreath
I can sense
Ugly breath
Ugly wrath
I can hear
Ugly roars
Of Jubilant beasts.

While slender white
Beautiful flesh
A flower of mankind
Is crucified.

What wilts upon this cross?
So abject in dejection?
Who hides his wan face
So crestfallen?
Whose pallid lips have blood blooms deserted?
While roses of defeat secretes upon
Palms of pain?

Heinous murder
Of the Lamb of God,
I hear a murmur,
Of murder
Ancient ghosts in the air
And the depth of this
Poisoned Grail
Runs deep
Seeps within my blood
Mottled veins
Where music dreams...

...His prayer.

Forgive them
Who know not.
What They do.

Sweet sad words
Of absolution.
Strangest rejuvenation
Of men

My blood circling
Through the circas
Curdles...
I cannot see
This gentile
This heathen Philistine
This heart hardened
In a clench of steel
I cannot hear
The healing.

Tear Laden eyes
Heavy with dreams
Of dubious dutiful
Mankind.

(c) Amrita Valan 2017

The Belief

This gentle Jew
This docile flower
Sprung from the wailing  desert walls
of age old Jerusalem.

This man so maimed
Blossoming blood
Into miraculous beliefs.

Galilean... Nazarene.
Urging us on
To peace
Through purgation
The catharsis
Of blood.

His Father's business
Needed handling
Upon rough hewn Cross
His death bed he bore
And straddling an entire world
He stood watch
Through the dim darkling hours.

And forevermore fostered
Tales and parables of
His glory.

To fascinate little lives
Such as ours
Titillating us
With walks upon water
And water turning into wine.

The point being

We still needed
Proof
Before
We could learn
To wonder.

I believe
I believe
Miracles are not
Providence
Nor endorsed by
Mankind.

I believe that
Faith
Is the product
Of Goodness
And the horrid sordid price
It pays.

May your phoenix
Forever soar
Forevermore upon the ashes
Of humans
Immortalized by their belief
In Divinity.

Ardent, steadfast,
Derivative.

(c) Amrita Valan 2017

The lost pebble

There have been times
I have wished myself
A rounded smooth pebble
In the palms of beloved
Curio seeker
Safe harbor at last
From wash and wear
Of roughest ocean
And yet its touch
Has moulded
Me in gentleness.
My contours soft and undulating
dapples of demurely concealed
Distress
The stormy rants
Of rites of passage
And my initiation into
Living
While steadily drowning
Doggedly crowning the crests
Of incessant waves
Till bullied into submission
I was rolled like dice
Discarded upon the beach
Of bedlam
For a madman's moist caress.

Here and now
I must discard my oceanic lore
The store of wisdom
Incalculable
To sit upon a shelf
Forever forgotten
Grateful for oblivion's
Settled down.
Dusk sets
On my smooth
Aquamarine lights
Bathing in
Sober sherbets of pink
And cloudy reds
In the skylight of my
Narrow room
The last patch
Of freedom's blue
Fades
Black motifs
Of endless night
Will do for me
Now, nicely.

I await the eventuality
Of disintegration
Dust inspired
To dust returned.

(c)  Amrita Valan 2017

Second death

Before my second death
I befriended the beast
I needed to know
The first time
Was not in vain

I had cried
Saddest requiem
Checked my lipstick
In the mirror
Before filling my lipstick Case.

With all the pills my
Pain could hold.
To prove you wrong
And show
My heart of gold.

I only died
In my dreams
A bit.

I lived
To recant that tale
And weave my web
Again
Minus the intrigues
Of old coffers
Of ambitions
Bravely borne
Bold, so bright
Now bereft.

Before my second death
I cast a spell
To invoke my soul
Should artifice fail

No words can
Cast out shame
No confession can erase
The pain
Till admission
Becomes proof
To silent guilt.

I will survive.
I have auctioned
My emotions
To live to the hilt.
This threadbare life
My boldface game
Tears are curtains
When my face
Is limp and lame
Like my hair
A spider veil
If you stroke it
I may revive
Or lacerate your palms
Alms of undeserved
Benevolence.

Goodnight and goodbye
I have been too attached
To my prison
My orison
Your real world
Cannot match up
To the serious
Slade House
Of my sadistic soul.

Splitting atoms
Over hairline differences
I masticate
Molecules of my mortality.

Souls are slurry soups
Deliciously mortgaged
To infinite prospects
Of melancholy.

Meanwhile
Eternity's meanderings
Pass us by
Untouched and
Unmoved.

(c) Amrita Valan 2017

Witch's Cry

Witch's Cry

Amelie I am still here
Still waiting, my pretty dear
Out in this Brazen blizzard
Under this beautiful sky painting's
Midnight blue false ceiling
With wisps of white trimming
Wishful will o' the wisp wind
works it's wanton wanderings
Calls to thee my heart
Whispering my soul's secrecy
Here Amelie!
Hear me.

The graveyard shift
Churns my callow blood.
My goose pimpled skin
Is hung out like a shroud
Slicing this reality machine
That blinds ye.

Amelie.
You were my little girl.
The unborn baby
Macabre sacrifice.
You're my everything
Witchcraft in the wind
Spells too sacred
To tell.
You're the reason
I wield a wand.
My child.
Your carcass strung
Over the cauldron
As the coven
Made demand.
The covenant  was made.
Purest most holiest blood
Shed

I am now working all the mirrors
Of the universe.
And shattering crystals
That cry out
Baying bloodthirsty moons
You're not dead my child
While I live
My eyes agonized
Shards of bloodbath...

Amelie.
You're
Epitaph.
That marks the Tombstone
Of my soul.
I am not alive.
A witch lies encrypted
Between life and death
Love and hate
Bewitched.

Missing you
Kissing you
Messing with your hair
Thank you for the memories.

The haunting insight
Of humanity
Tendered
For sale.

Those are my roots
I swing alone
Between Nictitating
Night vision
And  Necromancer
Netherlands.

(c) Amrita Valan 2016

Slop Weekly Challenge Promises

Promises

Promises I never made to myself
Promises I forgot
In evening's remembrance
Promises are unkempt,
Tired and dirty
Quick and tardy,
Dumped in the parking lot.

I never heard the good news
Little waif untimely lost
The inner voices in my head
Raged Babel.
Myself I forgot.

To redeem, to reclaim
The name of the game
I forgot to make  promises
To honour
Payments never made
In pain.
The name of the Rose is Brazen
A vicious cipher eating out its tail.
Now heads up tails down
Pain,
Either which way
Its price unclaimed.

The price displayed on request
Requests that can't be made
So much for empty promises
Leave requiems for those undead.

I haven't taken the oath of life
I abdicated the vows
And accepted the snow-capped view
Of mock minarets
Shahid Minars of show.

The windows of life
Are narrowing down
The games changing
Or just winding down
But one harsh promise
I won't forsake.
Dead leaves of sweet decay
In Billowing time,
Winter buries its fangs
On my rusty rake...

I will
Grip every rose by its thorns
In my yearning nails
Tearing my palms
Till they are bled
Of all the sweetest sap
That I have left.

Promises wreath me
In mists of past mistakes
I wear my Fool's crown
My post dated quest
To glean insights from
these velvet petals
Till they shrivel me dead.

(Eat up the eternal dark
Till water of love and light
Herald of new life
Ever faithless
Under the sun awakes.)

(c) Amrita Valan 2017