At the Zenith of my Life

At the Zenith of My Life

When towards the end
The darkness besets me
Darkness unlike another
The womb life giving
Reminds me
Light is a blinding madness
And escape beckoning,
I am my mirror now
Knowledge reflecting,
From every pore
From every wrinkle
The crows feet, the laughter lines,
Each varicose vein
Each mark of pain
Is knowledge,
That sets me free.

It senses another light beckoning
Accross these higher levels of  darkness
I kiss the nadir of earthly dreams
To touch the feet of life with love
To say adios with gratitude
A somber delight
A lightness earned
I now reach for  its zenith

In the cries of
The gathering bereaved at departure of dear loved dream
For that's what those days now seem
Of empty yearnings and swift unraveling

I am alive in each lively spark
That tosses my shell to cinders
Watch out for the innocent lovers in the park....
None may tear sweet joy asunder.

As at a multiplex
Five different dramas and comedies and satires play
I receive funeral wreaths
And scent succulent flavors of the barbeque next door...
Party on
The night I'm gone
In unconscious
Gleeful commemoration
Of life's song.

The universe is offering alms
Sorrows expirations
And it's almost on the tip of my tongue
The frozen shower of ice cream cones that thaw in warm palms...
Expiate in exultation. ..

Remembrance is such joy
Hold it lightly, it's but a toy
New stories start every day
And the child in us must be forever gay....

Even your tears dissolve in the sea of lives
Nothing melts me
Misty eyes I see you
And again I will
include all of you who are
Present at this mourning

I'm upon mountain peaks of peace snowboarding through glacial valleys that lead on
Through this mysterious wormhole which brought me in
And will wash me out
Of Life's
Orchestral symphony.

Like tumbling waterfalls
Crystal foams
I will bubble my flecky songs
The breathtaking beauty bursting upon
One feeble breath and then it's gone
Without alas or sense of loss
Beauty up in the air
Spinning a crazy coin
For a moments delightful toss...

Believe me that body was encumbrance armor donned
in battle, diving gear to sustain unnatural breath
If you are looking for the light
Rejoice like children ...
Clap and sound applause!

I've escaped the smothering gravitational mothering
I'm in forever's empty embrace
I'm in breathtaking free falling flight...tunneling through new visions of chilling grace and space.

© Amrita Valan 2014