Soft Nothings

Soft Nothings

I'm so soft
The frost in your voice
Makes me feel lonely
Lost in the void

And I'm so hard
When you discard me
In rejection's armor
I'm alloyed.

I have been lonely
Best days of my life
Sitting in the bedroom
Of my cloistered mind
I have laughed and
Have cried...

Those childhood terrains
Soft formative plains
Have rivers of emotions
Hard swollen blue veins.
And laughter like snowflakes
Brushed off my pain.

Your flints of disgust
Your fundamental lust
The chips raining down
Make the right choices
Or this will go bust

But I'm glad if it's gone
You see
I was never alone
The mind that I carry
Carries a throne

There sits in shadows
A king
Of sweet pain
The keys to my kingdom
Hands back again

No one has the right
To enter my mind
Lock it up
And throw away the key
My love is strong not blind

In the fall of my rejection
In the casting away
In the truth of disaffection
I'll find another way

Another approach
The truth I will broach
Then the lock unturned
Together we open each other
The keys to return
Mine opened up you
And yours mine
Did turn...

Stone me with hatred
Inflicting pain...
This heart sponge soaks
It
But wringes again
Rising higher stronger
Than ever you will
I wish you much love....
Beyond  ordained Nihil.

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