New Beginnings

Date changes on the calendar
Thrusting us forward
Propellers cutting through time
As far as our utmost breath
Will carry us
Engines revving reviving
Take offs
Landings
Till the runway or the fuel
Ends.

Endeavors towards optimism. ..
Saccharine artifice and sacrilege
Strange and strong resistance
A reluctant movement
Helpless in the face of
Earth's relentless motion
Turning returning
Dating aging

New beginnings?
God  I'm not done yet
With the old
So much left undone
That I'm still
chewing upon.

New beginnings?
How should I be?

Better more positive
Less regrets
More fun
Greater goals
Aspirations
New recipes
A job
Rehash forgotten college skills
Driving  French Programming

Ha ha! New Beginnings?
Yes...send me back in time
Please.
New beginnings. ..
I want to start afresh

Redo my first days in college
Establish myself
As serious honors student
Wish I hadn't torn up the prospectus of my life
Over a failed affair
Wish I had set sail
On my ship of dreams
Taken more chances
Against tyranny of unfair
Elders unloving brother
Made a marriage
not a gamble
Never capitulated under pressure
Wish I hadn't tried suicide
To see how it felt
To die.

Now it's a toss up

Wish myself again
Life
Death
Or
New Beginnings.

Puff!
Blow out the candles.
The magic dragon
I  shall slay.

Okay I will behave.
Let me start
On the smallest scope
Over the slopes of inclinations

I will  take up driving
Once again.

I will drive in reverse skid off the eternal parallel railroad tracks back up out of my rut of a life
Ruthless against the winds 
Breaking barricades
In defiance
To rules of rote existence.

New beginnings.
I'm no beginner at  them.

This time around
I will not forget
To throw
A pinch of salt
Over my shoulders
Damn the Devil
And be responsible for
Happiness.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014