Divergence

Divergence

I want to write you a love song
But I veer off 
Into physics and calculus
Tired literary references
Mind over spent
Much used tedium
Full of dull rubbish
Poached ivory
Leprechaun gold
Cold useless gems
Blood diamonds.

And you are much too late
And I'm a gullible sophist 
Greedy Guinevere
Dabbling in
Dreams and philosophy.

I had a little dart of desire
Shot through with such intense
Fear
Panting in the dark like pain
Now my pen leaches corrosive
Signature
From grotty ink out of my veins.

There's a body to touch just so
But it's
Dancing librettos in my mutant
mind
There are glowing wounds
Too deep to reveal
And easier to sustain
Scabbed
Than to heal.

And you keep me alive
By peeling off pretences
Flaying me mercilessly
Oh you skin me alive
So raw so livid 
Hurts so
Glorious
I want to feel you again
And again...

I kept a cozy lid of pooled tears by the fire
drops of desire sheathed in furry
Lashes protective
Demure and dark
With deception
Dripping unsated
desires...

Hot wet kisses
Dampening  drilling
Stroking wanton need 
Upon my body
On my poem
The doused hearth 
Lit up 
The tinder stoked
Hope invoked

That our most involuted
Involvements and secret
Convoluted pathways
Built up from ground down
basest desires
Can become this
Beautiful beacon
Blazing joy.

That this grey blue ghostly sky with 
Brown divides
Heralding my dirty daisy wheel day
This dumb luck plucky awesome night
With no wonder left
In it at all
This insipid creamy expanse 
Of still air between my languid walls
Bland boredom
Denying catharsis...

Are imbued
With wondrous alchemy...
Alladin and Alibaba's
Magic caverns.

Aleph 
Mem
Bis and shin
In harmony
Deliberate conflict
Driven through diversity.

Totality's thunderous applause
Of unity
Blossoming becoming
Tree of
Endogenous life.

Master and disciple
The hand that holds and guides...
Oh! the tender torture
Of guarded discovery
Walled walk of ecstasy
Pavlovian life....

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